Vanessa Bryant is going through the grieving process, and on Monday night the widow of Kobe Bryant took to Instagram to pen an open letter letting her frustrations out.

Bryant posted a video collage of her husband and baby girl, Gianna with a lengthy and emotional caption. Vanessa reveals that while she is trying to make sense of it all, she is very frustrated and struggling to process the fact that both her husband and daughter are no longer here.

Get into the emotional post below.

 

 

 

 

 

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I’ve been reluctant to put my feelings into words. My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can’t process both at the same time. It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong. Why should I be able to wake up another day when my baby girl isn’t being able to have that opportunity?! I’m so mad. She had so much life to live. Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters. Mad I’m not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I’m here with Natalia, Bianka and Capri. I know what I’m feeling is normal. It’s part of the grieving process. I just wanted to share in case there’s anyone out there that’s experienced a loss like this. God I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all.

A post shared by Vanessa Bryant 🦋 (@vanessabryant) on Feb 10, 2020 at 11:14am PST

Fans will be able to join Vanessa and the family at the upcoming public memorial on Feb 24 at the Staples Center as we previously told you. She also shared that information. 

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#2, #24, #20 years as a Laker and the amount of years Kob and I were together ❤️❤️💜💛

A post shared by Vanessa Bryant 🦋 (@vanessabryant) on Feb 7, 2020 at 9:49am PST